Day 2 - Breakfast

My daughter and I are on a weird schedule, maybe that's part of my bad eating habits; who knows. We don't get up sometimes until around 10 AM which means I sometimes don't eat until around 11 or even 12. Today though I had a bowl of cheerios. One cup of cheerios and half a cup of milk was 170 calories. I'm a little hungry right now but I think it's because I'm so obsessed with food this weekend. If I do decide to eat anything I'll go for an apple before I have my lunch. Not sure what that will be yet but we have a frozen pizza in there that says 1/5 is 300 calories. I believe that's two or three slices which isn't that bad...is it?

I weighed myself today before getting into the shower and the scale said 168. I know you aren't supposed to weigh yourself every day so I won't get excited about that one pound just yet; but it's promising. I expect those 4 pounds will be easily lost since they've been those obnoxious four pounds that come and go every few weeks. Making it to 160 will be the success marker since my body sometimes gets into a rut.

My husband and I have been struggling though and are on food stamps so I have to wait until next week before I can go buy new food. I told my husband that maybe I should do the shopping from now on since he can't seem to balance the card. Every month he's bought the food we don't make it to the end of the month. When I asked him to bring me home some chocolate, ya he did what he was asked but he brought me a bag of small snickers, and two packages of Hershey's bars; they have 6 bars in each pack. Then he'd randomly buy me my favorite chips; either Salsa Verde or Spicy Hot Cheetos. It's nice that he thinks of me when he goes shopping but he knows we both need to lose weight. (I ask him to be honest, I don't want to be one of those couples that says "do I look fat" and he says no while I'm 400 pounds. ) We both need to diet, he doesn't even like to be in photos because he can't stand to look at them. We have a (soon to be) 14-month-old and I know in the future he'll look back and regardless of how fat he is, he's going to want to see himself in photos with her.
One thing that bugs me is he says he won't stop eating his favorite foods just to diet but then he bitches that he's unhappy with how he looks. Like, he won't give up soda. Grrr I'm one of the biggest Pepsi addicts. I used to not be able to get to 4PM with out having a headache if I did not have a soda. Being his mom is diabetic don't you think cutting out soda would be important? I told him we could buy the half cans and he said no, that that is just stupid. I'll be honest, if Pepsi is in the house, I drink it and I don't moderate how I drink it. I told you, it's my addiction. I actually get a relaxation feeling when I drink it, sometimes where I feel like I can breath better. THAT'S BAD! When it's not in the house I save it for special occasions like restaurants or birthday parties.